Saturday, May 29, 2010

Coz Your twinkle is a steal !

why undo why break
when nothing is tethered
how does one free pain... See more
when its as personal as can be
for it gives the meaning true
to joy and thoughful gain

Why climb a cliff
when one can take u high
why reach for the sun
for you are shining brighter,,
than the big one in the sky

Follies are must
for there has to be a line
between piety and lust
how else would one learn
through burnt fingers..
of wht drives another
whether it be intelligence
or just a stagnant churn

everybody loves freedom
what they dont reveal
is a desire to be bound

But when tressia talks
and when a seagull flies
jonathan agrees

that when a war's on
there is no time for wounds to heal
one grits the teeth ..drops the steel
and lives life.. for a pixie's twinkle is a steal !

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Need for Ashnah !


Little Girl ..
Little Joy ..
Smitten girl ..
Smitten boy..

Tall as the tree ,
Chinky eyes..
Taller than the tree,
Smiling wise..

Take me high
Bring me a change
Gift me a life..
Be Strong..

See her.. joyous highs
See Ashnah, sparkling eyes
Let her be the strength
In our separate lives

Cheers... Chakrapani

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

POSSESSION


An angel Questioned..
little eyes twinkling,Chinky eyed...
"Have I possessed you yet ?"
She smiled...,I gazed away
No , I lied,
"A lot more ..you would need to try."
I Hid my face and my eye !

"Huh !" she moaned.
In her dejected sweetness ,
Tethering her frown,
she dropped her brow.
Lifting her moist eyes ,
she subdued her surmise.

"And have you possessed me ?"
She asked I.Scyllian tresses flying..
"I'm not there yet "
gazing away, says I..
Snapping knuckles and a fake fret.
"How long would you take to get.. ?"
"I don't know..I've sort of resigned...
sulking
in a past's dragnet !"

Little did she realize..
My stupid pride and and fake lies..
She already had me,
And i wasn't even close yet !
In the palm of her hand
in the depth of her mind.
I plunged into this headlong..
this entrapment of an emotional grind !

Im still here,
Too late..she's gone.
Gone with her are her bye's
I hear one republic..
"Its too late to apologize"

.. chakrapani

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

This unfamiliar .. This never before


This unfamiliar .. this never before,
this shaking of the hand..
This shiver of coldness.. and its encore,
this loss of thought,the loss of cognition
This emptiness within wherever i stand.

That something.., i for so long.. so fabled,
That strength, that pride, weakened and i humbled
That scary spineless shudders I shuddered,
That life not so mine , and hers too i embittered.

..chakrapani

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


Rocks and Reflections !



Stay with me
Stand by me..
Comfort me..
smother me..
Be my support..
Be my rock..

criticize me ..
correct me..
show me to me
Reflect me.. mirror me
Be my Reflection..

Chakrapani

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

We..,Mere Spectators..



Things across India are not at all like that in Slumdog.., We are prosperous ..Yet not everyone here is a millionaire.. So is the case in the rest of the world !
And a rupee makes a difference to this lady .

Question ... should one give alms at the traffic signal and encourage it ?
Encourage the organized market of begging business which never comes to the fore.These beggars are never begging for themselves. There is a syndicate of kingpins and rich thugs who ferry around and deploy beggars at designated traffic points and temples ,collecting days earnings the beggars get a commission/food in return.

Fact .... NGO's and social reconstruction communities try in vain to protect the young kids who get sucked into this maelstrom of organized begging. If some people do wish to mend their life, they face the wrath of such kingpins who function under the aegis of powerful politicos.

Question... So what do we do ? How does one show direction to the little kids begging at street corners ?

Question ...How do we teach them vocational trade and craft ? Help them become self reliant and self employed so that they could earn money , to sustain themselves. How do we stop the nurturing of potential criminals and their petty thievery .

Question ... How does one fight such an organized enterprise protected by the selfish ?
Fact... Like everyone, I have questions and no answers.I am an average individual.Maybe I have a little enterprise , some ideas, yet I have no energy left with me in these times of economic duress(Sic !).

Fact ..I am in the end , a mere pathetic excuse of a spectator !

Friday, March 06, 2009

BAILOUT

He's down in a ditch
the mind's in a mindless slump..
his creations running high..
Give him a muse..
so slay the lethargical dump..
for he lies.. staring at the sky
waiting for a bailout to walk by .

..chakrapani

Saturday, January 31, 2009

CHALK POWDER AND CHORUS !

A year ago, I had asked myself I had torn an A4 size full scape paper and opened a pen to start jotting all the stuff that held me back.What was it that was stopping me.What were the obstacles that i had to overcome.Two hours went by and not as much as a word on the sheet, I cursed myself . Not because the ball point pen nib had gone dry, but because I had no idea what had stopped me from doing this thing all these years.This thing ,that I now realize gives me such joy that knows no comparison.Sitting on a wooden bench in the headmaster's room, there I was... retrospecting.
An hour later , the bell rang and I got up, picked up two full length chalk pieces and on the way to my class broke them into one inch lengths. Some kids saw me walking up the stairs and scurried into the class shouting "Arey ! Spoken English .. spoken English class.. saar vostunnaru (Hey dudes !Spoken English Sir is coming !) ". Couple of kids approached me saluting "Good morning Saar !" (Yes ! an actual Salute !) and ran into the class. Stepping in I was greeted with a loud and boisterous greeting as 45 girls and boys stood up smiling and beaming.Most of them stretching and some almost falling onto the floor because of cramps from sitting on the floor for hours together.I gave a huge smile ,greeted them back and mumbled to myself, "Time to get my hands dirty ".
An hour later I walked out . My hands dry felt dry and rough smeared with chalk powder.I reach into my pockets for the hand kerchief .I find no use for my hanky as all the chalk has already decorated my black jeans.I don't mind. I'm happy.I wish to clap my hands to dust off whatever calcium that's left on my hands.My mind objects and I let it be.
The kids gather around me excited throwing questions at me about the singing/English speech competitions that I have announced for the next class.Me and other volunteers have planned on contributing cash for the gifts for the winners and the participants.The kids are no longer reluctant and scared to approach me.Yet there is still a lot to be done to make them confident in front of their classmates, forget the outside world.No decent footwear, some without any.No proper uniforms and clothes, torn books and bags,dirty and disheveled hair,yet gleaming faces and beaming smiles is all that I can remember.
We have to get the kids to get interested in education and make them confident that it will do them good.Most kids , boys especially, work part time and are the sole earners of the family.Their parents and siblings depend on them for the daily work and labor that they do,in that these boys are no longer afraid of their parents.
Some kids are good and eager . Encourage them.Some are reluctant and uninterested, What do we do about them ?.
Me and my friend drive back from the school.I have important work to be finished in the rest of the day. I cannot take a class for the other government primary school that I had been visiting. The 8th standard girls are wonderful there.They exude a lot of energy. They are more curious and quick learners than this class.They giggle, laugh , listen, write down stuff and interact more.
I am sorry I cannot visit you today.
It was 3 hours a week till some time back.And now an hour a week is just not enough !

Chakrapani

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Of Moon and A Paid Holiday !

I first visited the moon in the hot summer nights of my college days. Sleeping under the open night sky seemed to be one of the most wonderful things to do.Especially if it was the full moon night. Not that I had anything else to do,least of all.. study. And with everything in the vicinity lit up in a surreal endothermic glow, a brilliant moment,yet not blinding.Let me take you there.. that surreal place, that I love to holiday at.
The last time I visited this fabulous place for a vacation, last month, I took this picture to remind me of the fondness of the joy that I had come to associate with this place. The wide craters and grey valleys stretching till the horizon.As far as the eyes could see. Ultra quick tanning under the UV laden sunlight. Long rides over the dusty moon plains and the moon dunes with the moon buggie (The four wheeled rover provided free of charge by the hotel management free of the charge.I Know !!! great ! Isn't it, Free !, I mean who does that on earth these days ). Relaxed sailing with the friends ( or your partner for that matter) in the tranquil grey black dust of the 'Sea of tranquility'. Trekking expeditions to the top of the largest craters in the district. Exhilarating stuff !.
The locals are very hospitable and cheery people.Mostly geology scientists,who have taken to hotel and tourism industry to fund their own research and experiments.Strangely, they all seem to have a back ailment . It's probably a genetic disorder which has developed and embedded itself into their chromosomes .Something to do with the fact that their ancestors always did moon-dust research on all their fours( knees and hands) .One of the best things I liked was that the locals would welcome you to join them in a game of soccer. Their soccer fields are our seven soccer fields put together. And the best part is... You never get tired. Though we had trouble with the balls( Hmmph ! Not those ones ! Ugh !). If kicked too hard the footballs would end up orbiting the moon.And the food.. Amazzing ! The desserts.. 'Ebony and ivory', chocolate crater cake.. Black forest with moon sauce.. Ah! such a great treat.
The beaches are fabulous.With the dust waves lapping at your feet. Relaxing under the scorching sun is a burning time pass. The nights are really cold. Every morning one has to get oneself defrosted !. And that is what adds to the uniqueness of the place. I mean where else do you get to see a sky full of brilliant white stars and an enormous, brilliant blue white 'earth'. Frosty and romantic !!
All said and done, This has been one of the best places I have ever visited and no doubt, is one of my favourites.
Cheers !
Chakrapani

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Photographing the Moon !

You will be interested in reading this post if you are a photography enthusiast, and own a camera. Any camera for that matter, it does not have to be a high end Digital SLR camera .And what the heck is that? some of you may ask.Well, that is the type of camera which professional photographers or serious enthusiasts keep lugging around.A friend of mine happens to calls them "Space shuttle of a camera", whenever he sees one in my hand.


You can try this even with a Point-n-Shoot (regular automatic digital camera) which has a decent zoom capability (5X or more).I own a Nikon D-SLR, and I shot this picture of the moon on a full moon day with a clear sky.


The Moon !


Set the camera on Full Manual Mode . Denoted by "M" on the thumb dial. Set the following calibrations in your camera.
Aperture : F/11 (also called F-Stop)
Shutter Speed : 1/160 (One Sixtieth of a second)
ISO : 400
Zoom : MAX ( This is 11x )
White balance : AUTO


These are the settings with which I took this picture of the moon with quite an amount of detail and clarity.I finalized this setting after about 7 to 8 trial shots in different settings.


You might ask ... why am I using 1/160 th of a sec as my shutter speed.The basics say that for night photography we need to reduce the shutter speed to capture more light.So I should be reducing my shutter speed,making the shutter slower... Right ?. True !,Good job in remembering that basic fundamental (give yourself a tiny pat on your back :) ). But here, The moon is the brightest object in the night sky, and to capture the details of the terrain of the moon, the craters and the valleys , we need to cancel out the light just enough in order to capture those details.Other wise you would just end up with a picture of a bright overexposed white disc on a black background. And you do not require a tripod for this shot since your shutter speed is fast enough.

I found that the ISO at 400 increased the sensitivity of the sensor just enough to capture the details and at the same time I did not observe any noise in the photograph.And yes, I know you remember that high ISO (1600 +) results in more noise(grainy pictures) and low ISO (100/200) has absolutely no noise. :)

So good luck and try taking the pictures of the moon ,and impress people.

Cheers
Chakrapani

Friday, May 02, 2008

Dear Blog,

It has been a while since I have blogged. But that does not mean I have stopped,or I don't intend to blog anymore. Not many reasons, but the few that are there are pretty heavy reasons.

1. Work ! Different work , tough work .
Lot of new things that I came across in my work have opened my erstwhile
clouded eyes to the realities regarding certain skills that I thought I
possessed. Misconceptions galore !. Hey ! I am NOT disclosing them here.
The routine and schedule at work keeps me quite busy throughout my time
at work and even after work. Post-office .. pre-office blah blah.I am
pretty tired to put my mind to serious writing. Poetry included,and
honestly work is definitely not the kind of muse that inspires you to write
poetry or prose. My sense of humour and my attitude have
taken a beating lately.And I seriously intend to do something about it.So
lords of literature.. help me .


2.Photography.
Very exhilarating so far .I have discovered that it is really invigorating
and does great justice to my really admirable patience.(Yeah Rrright ! )
And yes, I love it. And what I really want to do is to make my photos fall
in love with my writing. Ahem, that is after my writing standards have
risen .And with photography, the more pictures I take , the more
experienced I get behind the lens , the better I get. And what do I intend
to do with my photos and write-ups ? Post them online in the form of
travelogues and photoblogs . Food for the mind. Wish me luck.

To start with . My next post will be about a couple of examples of misused English words.I hope they are an eye opener for you as well. Many a times a person finds oneself in a split second confusion about the proper usage of a particular idiom in English. Verbal mix-ups can make you look rally sloppy no matter how smart you are
dressed up to do whatever you plan to do. Be it sales presentations, corporate presentations , or friendly conversations for that matter. Verbal misuse
and bad diction( consider this post :) )can glaringly point out a person's inability to sport differences in things , inability to comprehend things in a split second and thus inability to make decisions within time.

The bottom line is that one needs to know about commonly misused words and idioms to avoid becoming a comic tragedy !

CP

Sunday, October 28, 2007

An Elevated Aura
The Birla Mandir ,Hyderabad


Closer to the elevation !! ..






Elevated !!! and Elated !!
Sunset From Birla Mandir .. Nampally, Hyderabad !



(click picture for larger image )



Wednesday, September 05, 2007

ONE OF THE BEST SONGS EVER COMPOSED ... and also one of THE BEST POETRY EVER WRITTEN !!





GOO GOO DOLLS ... OST City of Angels !

Saturday, August 11, 2007

THE MAKING OF ' GANGA ' !!! :) ............




Here is a phase by phase pic post of how I sketch ... Hope this interests you as my subject takes form :)








The Basicbuilding blocks ..
of human form !!
angles and curves included :P


( i was always good at geometry and Engg drawing !.. now u know why !! :) )



















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structure ...




















.. :P


























she gets shape... ( the curves !! :) )





















The Dupatta ..




























giving shape and flow to fabric ...


















hmmmm next .... ..











AND .....



























FINALLY .......... :) this is what we have here !! :) my creation .. !!


She's gorgeous !!! ???? :P Do tell me !

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Here Goes ... A Stand up comedy in Hindi on Abhi-Ash Wedding...


If you know proper Hindi and know the Indian Bollywood stars..

This video is great entertainment !!...

"Stand up Comedy on Abhi-Ash Wedding..in Hindi."

lov CP

Friday, July 20, 2007

CP's BLUE SKY HAPPINESS .....
(click on the pics to see full resolution.. )

The moment I took the bottom snap ,I felt good .. It came out good .. Like an asphalt road to the glorious blue heaven. A smooth plain pathway to happiness.

Those little stars in the foreground are frost flowers on the window .. It was -50Degree Celcius..outside at that height !

Hats off to "Wright Brothers " for inventing Flight ! and come to think of it i actually felt like a bird . There was turbulence in the air a lot of times .. and this one time i could see the wing flap like a bird's wing . Yes !! The wing tip rose and fell quite a distance in the air ..:)




The little tufts of white clouds flashed past the window .. all i could do was to want to feel them with my fingers.. inspite of the science in my head telling me that i can never ever do that .. yet the poet in me insisting that i try . !!!


The blue shades mesmerised me as I gaped open mouthed at the blue expanse... Surprised at how a little window could open my eyes so much.
All pics .. NOKIA N-72 (human edition.. !! lol )
And If u see properly.. You can even see the Moon ! :) Yes ! I saw the moon in broad daylight.. its clear in the above snap .Right in the centre.. a white curved spec.. It was pretty clear to me.. expand the pic if you want ! :) .Well its visible in all the pics..
caio !
...CP


Tuesday, July 17, 2007

My Random clicks in .. THE MORNING CALM .. .. Seoul , South Korea







My Bedroom ..


SIGH !



Calmest workplaces ..











Towering heights ... well lit streets, Decent controlled traffic..

8 lane roads..















Amongst the richest lifestyles on planet earth !


















Ain't they the cutest things !!

The softest and the lightest too !!

















And the View from my bedroom !!


:)
















Lots of thoughts flash ..when one sees the hustle and the bustle from this birds eye view ...







Love travelling .. and will be doing this a lot !! Yes , this is for me ..

Regards CP


Thursday, June 28, 2007

My Drive to Office !! Before and After !


This time .. i've got no words .. just my pics :) and they do all the talking !



Before............ 1............

Before ..............2......................
Distance -------> 18 Km
Avg Time Taken --> 15-20 min..

After ........... 1.............


After ............2...................
Distance -------> 26 Km
Avg Time Taken --> 75 min.. ie 1 hr 15 min

(PS :And no ! .. i never worked at a farmhouse!! .. more like a . errm human zoo !! where a certain non endangered species called software professionals worked !! and work .. :P )

Thursday, June 14, 2007

The MOCHA TEASE !!!



Its 6 15 PM. I'm 10 minutes early at 'Barista Espresso Bar '@ Banjara Hills Road no 1 .



For the uninitiated , its one of the happening chain of coffee shops across the Indian metro cities . Having survived a boring day at my office , I flee from my desk an hour earlier than usual . Dude 'K' 's supposed to join me at the coffee shop . We havent met for a while ... We decided to catch up . Off late , Im having this fetish for real rich flavoured coffee !. I want to escape the mind numbing traffic that plagues this city of Hyderabad , so I start early.



I find myself lookin for a cosy table and corner .This nice old gentleman invites me over to his table for a game of chess ( jeesus Christ !! I quit that game 10 yrs back! ). I politely refuse with a smile and gritting teeth(That was tough .. trust me). I get hold of this month's 'Business Week' magazine .( Hey !! I am really not that boring !! :( .... jus read on ! ) . A few feet from me a group of youngsters are settled(Ok .Im not the uncle here ) . The guys look 19 something ! and a coupla girls .. All chirpy and bubbly !. I sit down and browse through the magazine . An article on corporate work decorum and personal life in office intrigues me . I casually gaze around , waiting for Dude 'K'. I notice a tall girl join the group. She looks different . No ,Not that different !! well she appealled to me.. I Notice she is tall. Really cute . I twist my seating angle to be able to notice her more often. By now Dude 'K' has come and we greet each other. WE start talking about all the guy things in the world. (giggle ..) One of the first things he says .." Dude ... That girl is cute !! "(50 points if ur best pal approves !! ) and i Go .. "Ahan !! and .. she's tall too " (add 15 Points !!)


And I dont know what takes over me ! . Rather , she takes over me. I happen to glance in her more often than required . This is so not me .I am surprised. Dude 'K' happens to sit opposite to me ,facing her( !#$$%^#$%^##) and I am contorting myself , trying to keep her in my field of vision. His is so totally gazing at her . I turn around to look at her with a frank stare. I feel the blood rush to my cheeks as she catches my eyes looking at her.! (Gulp ! ) .I pretend to look for the waiter boy ambling behind her( and i'm Still red !). I catch her pursing her lips with half controlled giggle not meant for her friends to notice and think she pretty well knows what went over me at my end . I turn back. still twisted at my hips.!

Here is what i noticed .She is tall and beautiful . A cheerful face. The kind of faces that always has a smile on it even if does not. The kind of faces that always makes me smile !.She is sprightly and vivacious ... thin and curvy. Yes , she did sport the natural contours . Showed no signs of any weakness.... be it physical or mental. perfecto !

I order my usual at the coffee shop. A Large 'Mocha tease' with cream . A sugar doughnut for the stomach. Me and 'K' are having animated discussion over the issue of corporate work decorum( #$%^#$%^#$%^).I twist around again to glance at her.. SIGH !!! .She smiled.. giggled a little ,probably to someones joke in her group.She does not seem interested in the group. How do i say that ? well... she is just giggling most of the time , and her giggles are half hearted. She is fiddling with her purse and looking in all directions .. a high percentage of her looks seem to find our direction .( No... seriously ... !! cmon..) . She gets up and detaches herself from the group. A tiny bit of agitation. Another girl joins gets up and joins her. They walk out. Me and "K" get back to our doughnut and coffee. I am thinking of her . Wondering if she's gonna come back. ..

And back she comes .! Walking with her pal by her side. She looks surprisingly tall next to her friend . Maybe 5' 8" ... ( yeah .. i know :) !!! ) As she walks in, she looks in our direction and flicks her hair over her shoulder and gives a sly smile. SSSiiighhhh !!!! Ingratiating indeed !. (50 points!! ) The whole group gets off their chairs . I am shouting inside my head .."Oh No!! Dont go now .. Sit .. sit .. notnow.. pleeeseeee" .. They walk away from the table .. and huddle together. I heave a sigh of relief as one of them takes out a Sony cybershot !.

'Say cheeze "..... and i felt like i just ate the biggest cheeze cake ever !! LOL. i observe that she is taking her snaps in our general direction. AHA !! bells ring in my head . ! I notice that she was taking pictures strategically getting us in the frame ! ( Me actually !! :) ) . Yeah Right !!! thats whay you say ? .. Well then explain why she stands so far away from the group wen taking the snap .. and one can easily make out that she is covering more than just the group .. ..:) !! so
maybe ...possible...but yes! she did take two snaps in 'My' direction
:)

Well ..the best part was her smile.( 300 points ) she had an oval face . ..................
And our eyes locked more than 5 ,6 times ... in acknowledgement !!


Smilin at each other ......
:)


THis is soo noooooooooooooooooooooot Me!!I swear !! ..Breathe .... sloww Breathe !!!
this is not happening... :) phewwwwwwww

She was wearing flats ..simple bare front straps types .. not gaudy .. not blase . sweet and simple.(150 points ...) She wore silver anklets which werent annoying to the ear at all. In fact , they were adding to her grace ! .Anklets adorning both the feet .Off White capris and a sleeveless lavender top , ...trendy .Lavender and off white combination is very impressive (200 points ..)

:)
nice taste
very elegant

Glancing a lot..lauging a lot .. a loooot ... no seriosly !! beleive me:) ,she spoke less
was listening more... Her friends were chattering like Mike Myers in "The cat in the hat"
She was not .... She was Hot .. A thousand pardons for those who consider that term offensive.! its a compliment . More than Hot .. she was Cute .. So amazingly cute.. she blew my sensibilities away ! Definitely more more matured than the others in the group .

:P
has to be a lil elder

kept glancing here an there
our eyes !! kept meeting and smiling ..



she spoke jus twice on her phone. Phone calls and messages a rarity. She didnt leave the group when the calls did come.That scratches out any special guys !! :)



...... ANd you know what.. This is one of the few times i get soooo close to liking a girl at sight and she liking me tooo.. And i was a nanofraction away from walking upto her and asking her name.... Inspite of her deliberately walking ahead of me and dude "K" couple of times.. We walking across them a couple of times ....... ( yeah !!! i am not Kidding.. :O ) I went back to teens !!! Really , Front and back Front and back.. Me so wishing she would be alone for a while .. Which happened !! yes . Her friends departed and she started walking off in the opposite direction after a while .. I was so sure .. She would have responded positively.. Well even a negative response would have been worth it..

But I didnt have the Guts !!! :( .. And i am so regretting it ........

Whoever you are.. Dearest "MochaTease " :( jus once more.. .. One more chance !! please ..

Hope to meet you .. :P

Lov CP ..